Warmth of Pressies~

It is a day after Christmas.

After spending my Chirstmas with my beloved lappy, giving myself a day off by marathoning drama from 8am to 11pm, it is time to talk about various presents I had received.

Firstly, it is the present from Amelia. I had chosen a black cardigan for myself and she paid for it. So it is a present. I had chosen this present because, cardigan is an apparel I always use. I love them as they always make me feel like my coordination is perfect with it. But, the main reason for choosing a cardigan is because it will protect me from the cold. Besides that, it is something I always bring or wear :) Then it is something that will last for a very long time. I never want to lose a friend whom will always be there to protect me. We are people from two different world. In her world, she can take things slow, she is never in a hurry and she is very happy-go-lucky. She is always grateful with what she has and relax when she needs, but I am the total opposite. I am someone whom rush through things. I don't stop to relax because I believe that the moment you stop, you lose the momentum. So she is someone whom will scold me harshly just like a family member to remind me to stop down and have a good look at the sky, at the world. Take that moment to be grateful to what I have. She always says that I have given her a lot, but she never realized, I really love every time she knocks on my door, every time she asked me out to relax and every time she tells me about English drama which I don't watch :P Because she makes me feel so much at peace, she makes me feel it is okay, she won't judge but she will just scold :P That is why I choose a cardigan which will protects me, and makes me life even more perfect <3

Thank you for coming in my life and changed it. Thank you for always being there for me ;) Thank you for a lot more that I can never finish counting <3

My WishList!

There are my wishlist:

1. Finish up my degree with my current results.

2. Able to work well with all my colleagues during internship.

3. Able to perform well during internship and secure a placement in the same company.

4. Go out and travel! Go somewhere far away and look at a brand new world.

5. To be able to keep a nice long hair without split ends.

6. To be able to slim down! So much so in cutting down my food intake XP

7. To be able to enjoy a buffet once a year to reward myself.

8. To finish up the research before my internship.

9. To have my name published in the papers after the completion. ;)

10. To cherish all I have right now <3

Letting go...

As easy as it to fall in love, is it that easy to let go? I wonder..

I am having a hard time in letting go. It has been some time, and I am wondering why I am not over it. Perhaps it is because he is a crush after such a long time. A lot of people would say that I set a standard that is too high, but wanting a guy whom will appreciate me as whom I am, liking my smartness and yet can lead in the conversation, a guy whom is okay with me staying at home all day just because I wanna study and have lots more to complete, listen to my little babbling about how much more to go and tell me 'you can do it'. Is that a too high standard? *wonders*

I thought I could have let it go easily because all in all he is just a crush. I had even seen a part of him which I think I can never accept those kind of selfishness. Thus, I chose to walked off, but why it hurts now? What game is my heart playing with me? Is like the brain knows it all but the heard just ain't listening. Ouch!

But I am determined right now. Locked away our messages, cleared my whatsapps, and certainly no more on reading news of him and his new girlfriend on my wall. I walked off to sit else where in the class and no more looking at him from far, if possible no more talking too. Very drastic, indeed. But, if a short break can quickly allow me to face him back, I don't see the reason why not. Perhaps this is also a way for me to wish them happiness. No other girls would want a girl being super-duper-good friend with their boyfriend right?

Joke of the day.

Finally, there is a lecturer whom voiced it out. I hate it so much when he always disturb the class by asking stupid or irrelevant questions and all.

Today, I am already very angry as when I am trying to sleep he sent 3 messages just to ask if I can go to a meeting which he didn't want to attend. What's more, I have a paper on the upcoming Saturday and he don't! Why can't he attends it. He sends those messages at 12:30 am. I am sleeping! So, I wasn't in a pleasent mood after my sleep being disturbed, have an early class and a bad hair day.

This guy whom is just like a fly is here to bug me again about some christmas dinner. Alright, I know it is a gathering and this is how the whole conversation goes:

Him: Can you confirm with me if you are going to the Christmas party?
Me: Why do you need it so urgently? I didn't see anyone confirming anything.
Him: Everyone had confirmed it already in FaceBook.
Me: *Superly pissed off* Hey A, we have a Christmas party on 30/12 right? So sorry lo, I can't join your Christmas dinner already since I had promised A first.
Him: *angrily turned away*
Me: *laughing out loud and evilly grinning*

Then now when I am checking back FaceBook, no one had confirmed it. You are such a big fat liar. I really hate that you just lie like that. Well, it pays in life. In the next class:

Lecturer: What is the difference between accounting and auditing.
Him: *Stupidly answering it with stupid answer* But he is a student with gpa of 4.0 >.<
Classmate: Joke of the day!
Class: Laughing out loud
Lecturer: So after this, what would they do in the cycle?
Him: *answering with a stupid answer again*
Lecturer: You shut up la!
Class: Burst out laughing and clapping!

Best thing that happened today. Then, he sat quietly throughout the class. Best damn thing!

A new me

Cut my hair short this year. Hopefully a new look would means a new beginning. I am always reluctant to cut my hair short and I did it this time, hopefully as my hair, everything would be able to start all over again.

A stressful semester with too many things happening in my life. Breaking up with friends as each of us are getting just too busy with life, splitting in opinion as my vision and morale in life differs greatly from theirs and getting just too busy on everything, is making my life a little more than disastrous. Again, I am forced out of my comfort zone, but hopefully this would brings me to a better future.

What would you do if you see your crush having a girlfriend and is always near you? Now only I know how much it hurts. The pain! Nothing could have explained it. I hate it so much to see them together, perhaps this is another reason why I choose to leave. I don't know where I belong to now. Perhaps time for another round of self-search. I wonder..

Call of Christmas

The month of gift is finally here~ Well, I have been preparing for it for a really long time.

Finally today one of my gift is done. It has been posted out and I can't wait to receive it tomorrow :) Well, nothing beats the feelings of wanting to know how the thing you customized turns out to be right.

The final design. 

If you have realized, each of them had smaller Christmas charms in it with various other charm as the main charm. Well, there is always a reason for the charms :) That is the beauty in it :)

Pictures that was taken years ago. Wondering when would
it be again that we would gather like that...

Firstly, it is the one with the camera charm. It is for the Christmas exchange gift with my besties. Nothing beats to have a group of friends whom walked 2/3 of your life celebrating and exchanging gift for Christmas. Wishing that I am in a country that snows so that we can have white Christmas. Haha! Well, I choose a camera charm to remind them that memories that we captured with our eyes are the ones lasting forever :) Besides that, we all love to take pictures. Maybe one day we will end up in different places, which we already are, chasing for different dreams, walking different paths, let us keep those precious memories deep in our heart. Thank you for coming into my life and changed it in a good way!

Here you go! My hero!

Then, it is the bird cage charm. That is for my beloved sister whom had been through so much. You are my role model, now and then! But remember, this key chain is to let you know, remind you that there is always a place call home~ Your cage, that would protect you from anything and everything. No matter how strong the storm are outside, as long as you return home, we will all be there to lend you a hand, to face it with you. Do remember, you are never alone and will never be!




Thirdly, it is the paris tower charm. That is one of my dream to be there, so I am giving it to a lecturer whom had fulfilled one of my dream :) She is my teacher, my partner and my very great friend. I am currently helping her with her research that makes us partners. But, she is always there to listen to my problems. Sometimes when I am so lost, I spend hours in her room and she would always listen to me without fail. Thank you for being there for me.

With the future lawyer, Ms. Alvina! 

Lastly, it is the one with a rock guitar charm. That is for a girl whom had went off so far to chase her dreams. Hello my future lawyer! How are you doing? You are still the same, rarely answer the call, reply message like 10 hours later, but nevertheless you still rocks. Who else would it be if it is not you? My dear precious friend Alvina. You are another person that is always there for me, and would always have the same point as I do. I really miss you being in my life. I missed those dinners we had together, those stupid jokes we shared about guys and everything else. Thus, a rock guitar charm is to let you know, you still rockz!

There are a lot of people come and go from your life. But, some will always remain, in your heart <3 They are those that changed my life, coloured it, and lastly, sparkle a little glitters on it. Who's yours? Do not forget to buy them gifts for Christmas, because small actions like that is to show that you cared :)

Am I a nerd?

Someone had just summarized my life in two words : Study and Arashi!

Well, proud to be a hardcore fans of Arashi, because they are always my source of motivation my dosage of happiness, but THAT'S ALL?!

I don't think that is all I have in my life. I always thought, I am trying my level best to be an all-rounder. I never liked english series because they are usually of several seasons and it consumes too much time for me to finish marathon-ing them. But, I alaways watch some Hong Kong drama or Japanese drama (well, those with the actors and actress I liked especially :P). I am not a nerd right?

I have been shopping for a lot. I buy clothes and shoes and bags and a lot more. I can cook just to save money in order to do a little more shopping. That makes me a nerd?! I don't understand the definition of a nerd any more.

My life has a lot more. Though, I can't deny, studies is a big part of it but that don't make it all of it. I do a lot more. I watch series, I draw, I read manga, I blog and a lot more. Well, listening to someone saying it to my face that my life consist of only study and Arashi, I am really depressed now. Just that our lifestyle is different, where mine is so much about study that makes you conclude that about me?

Offer Letter.

At this point of life, I think mine is getting more and more interesting. I didn't expect I am to expect 2 offer letter in a month!

I had finally got my offer letter as an assistant researcher from my university. Well, that would also means that I am getting my pay very soon! Yay! With that, I can be more independent and another tick off from my to-do list.

Once, I told myself I will be involved in a research to help a lecturer with it when I am still in university. I had made it right now. I am doing a research with her right now! It is of so much fun to see another achievement unlock. Though I have been doing it for a whole 2 months but the offer letter had just reached me today so the feelings had finally sink in that I am working! But, surely there is a price to pay. I am working, studying, handling club, rushing for assignments and study for exams, basically I am using every single moment I have wisely to ensure that none of it goes to waste, if no I won't be able to complete some of them.

Another thing learnt is no pain, no gain. Are you ready for it? I am thus I am walking the path of my choice now. What's more, I think it is a good start for my very soon and hectic like hell kind of internship. Well, that is the life of an auditor >.< But again it is a choice of life =)

Keeping myself motivated at all times so that I am able to be strong. Do remember that college life is not gonna be long. Do make full use of it. I think I had made full use of mine and I had grow a lot during this period. Trying out new stuff and all are part of my life now.

Do not look back and regret! Do your best now!