Warmth of Pressies~

It is a day after Christmas.

After spending my Chirstmas with my beloved lappy, giving myself a day off by marathoning drama from 8am to 11pm, it is time to talk about various presents I had received.

Firstly, it is the present from Amelia. I had chosen a black cardigan for myself and she paid for it. So it is a present. I had chosen this present because, cardigan is an apparel I always use. I love them as they always make me feel like my coordination is perfect with it. But, the main reason for choosing a cardigan is because it will protect me from the cold. Besides that, it is something I always bring or wear :) Then it is something that will last for a very long time. I never want to lose a friend whom will always be there to protect me. We are people from two different world. In her world, she can take things slow, she is never in a hurry and she is very happy-go-lucky. She is always grateful with what she has and relax when she needs, but I am the total opposite. I am someone whom rush through things. I don't stop to relax because I believe that the moment you stop, you lose the momentum. So she is someone whom will scold me harshly just like a family member to remind me to stop down and have a good look at the sky, at the world. Take that moment to be grateful to what I have. She always says that I have given her a lot, but she never realized, I really love every time she knocks on my door, every time she asked me out to relax and every time she tells me about English drama which I don't watch :P Because she makes me feel so much at peace, she makes me feel it is okay, she won't judge but she will just scold :P That is why I choose a cardigan which will protects me, and makes me life even more perfect <3

Thank you for coming in my life and changed it. Thank you for always being there for me ;) Thank you for a lot more that I can never finish counting <3

My WishList!

There are my wishlist:

1. Finish up my degree with my current results.

2. Able to work well with all my colleagues during internship.

3. Able to perform well during internship and secure a placement in the same company.

4. Go out and travel! Go somewhere far away and look at a brand new world.

5. To be able to keep a nice long hair without split ends.

6. To be able to slim down! So much so in cutting down my food intake XP

7. To be able to enjoy a buffet once a year to reward myself.

8. To finish up the research before my internship.

9. To have my name published in the papers after the completion. ;)

10. To cherish all I have right now <3

Letting go...

As easy as it to fall in love, is it that easy to let go? I wonder..

I am having a hard time in letting go. It has been some time, and I am wondering why I am not over it. Perhaps it is because he is a crush after such a long time. A lot of people would say that I set a standard that is too high, but wanting a guy whom will appreciate me as whom I am, liking my smartness and yet can lead in the conversation, a guy whom is okay with me staying at home all day just because I wanna study and have lots more to complete, listen to my little babbling about how much more to go and tell me 'you can do it'. Is that a too high standard? *wonders*

I thought I could have let it go easily because all in all he is just a crush. I had even seen a part of him which I think I can never accept those kind of selfishness. Thus, I chose to walked off, but why it hurts now? What game is my heart playing with me? Is like the brain knows it all but the heard just ain't listening. Ouch!

But I am determined right now. Locked away our messages, cleared my whatsapps, and certainly no more on reading news of him and his new girlfriend on my wall. I walked off to sit else where in the class and no more looking at him from far, if possible no more talking too. Very drastic, indeed. But, if a short break can quickly allow me to face him back, I don't see the reason why not. Perhaps this is also a way for me to wish them happiness. No other girls would want a girl being super-duper-good friend with their boyfriend right?

Joke of the day.

Finally, there is a lecturer whom voiced it out. I hate it so much when he always disturb the class by asking stupid or irrelevant questions and all.

Today, I am already very angry as when I am trying to sleep he sent 3 messages just to ask if I can go to a meeting which he didn't want to attend. What's more, I have a paper on the upcoming Saturday and he don't! Why can't he attends it. He sends those messages at 12:30 am. I am sleeping! So, I wasn't in a pleasent mood after my sleep being disturbed, have an early class and a bad hair day.

This guy whom is just like a fly is here to bug me again about some christmas dinner. Alright, I know it is a gathering and this is how the whole conversation goes:

Him: Can you confirm with me if you are going to the Christmas party?
Me: Why do you need it so urgently? I didn't see anyone confirming anything.
Him: Everyone had confirmed it already in FaceBook.
Me: *Superly pissed off* Hey A, we have a Christmas party on 30/12 right? So sorry lo, I can't join your Christmas dinner already since I had promised A first.
Him: *angrily turned away*
Me: *laughing out loud and evilly grinning*

Then now when I am checking back FaceBook, no one had confirmed it. You are such a big fat liar. I really hate that you just lie like that. Well, it pays in life. In the next class:

Lecturer: What is the difference between accounting and auditing.
Him: *Stupidly answering it with stupid answer* But he is a student with gpa of 4.0 >.<
Classmate: Joke of the day!
Class: Laughing out loud
Lecturer: So after this, what would they do in the cycle?
Him: *answering with a stupid answer again*
Lecturer: You shut up la!
Class: Burst out laughing and clapping!

Best thing that happened today. Then, he sat quietly throughout the class. Best damn thing!

A new me

Cut my hair short this year. Hopefully a new look would means a new beginning. I am always reluctant to cut my hair short and I did it this time, hopefully as my hair, everything would be able to start all over again.

A stressful semester with too many things happening in my life. Breaking up with friends as each of us are getting just too busy with life, splitting in opinion as my vision and morale in life differs greatly from theirs and getting just too busy on everything, is making my life a little more than disastrous. Again, I am forced out of my comfort zone, but hopefully this would brings me to a better future.

What would you do if you see your crush having a girlfriend and is always near you? Now only I know how much it hurts. The pain! Nothing could have explained it. I hate it so much to see them together, perhaps this is another reason why I choose to leave. I don't know where I belong to now. Perhaps time for another round of self-search. I wonder..

Call of Christmas

The month of gift is finally here~ Well, I have been preparing for it for a really long time.

Finally today one of my gift is done. It has been posted out and I can't wait to receive it tomorrow :) Well, nothing beats the feelings of wanting to know how the thing you customized turns out to be right.

The final design. 

If you have realized, each of them had smaller Christmas charms in it with various other charm as the main charm. Well, there is always a reason for the charms :) That is the beauty in it :)

Pictures that was taken years ago. Wondering when would
it be again that we would gather like that...

Firstly, it is the one with the camera charm. It is for the Christmas exchange gift with my besties. Nothing beats to have a group of friends whom walked 2/3 of your life celebrating and exchanging gift for Christmas. Wishing that I am in a country that snows so that we can have white Christmas. Haha! Well, I choose a camera charm to remind them that memories that we captured with our eyes are the ones lasting forever :) Besides that, we all love to take pictures. Maybe one day we will end up in different places, which we already are, chasing for different dreams, walking different paths, let us keep those precious memories deep in our heart. Thank you for coming into my life and changed it in a good way!

Here you go! My hero!

Then, it is the bird cage charm. That is for my beloved sister whom had been through so much. You are my role model, now and then! But remember, this key chain is to let you know, remind you that there is always a place call home~ Your cage, that would protect you from anything and everything. No matter how strong the storm are outside, as long as you return home, we will all be there to lend you a hand, to face it with you. Do remember, you are never alone and will never be!




Thirdly, it is the paris tower charm. That is one of my dream to be there, so I am giving it to a lecturer whom had fulfilled one of my dream :) She is my teacher, my partner and my very great friend. I am currently helping her with her research that makes us partners. But, she is always there to listen to my problems. Sometimes when I am so lost, I spend hours in her room and she would always listen to me without fail. Thank you for being there for me.

With the future lawyer, Ms. Alvina! 

Lastly, it is the one with a rock guitar charm. That is for a girl whom had went off so far to chase her dreams. Hello my future lawyer! How are you doing? You are still the same, rarely answer the call, reply message like 10 hours later, but nevertheless you still rocks. Who else would it be if it is not you? My dear precious friend Alvina. You are another person that is always there for me, and would always have the same point as I do. I really miss you being in my life. I missed those dinners we had together, those stupid jokes we shared about guys and everything else. Thus, a rock guitar charm is to let you know, you still rockz!

There are a lot of people come and go from your life. But, some will always remain, in your heart <3 They are those that changed my life, coloured it, and lastly, sparkle a little glitters on it. Who's yours? Do not forget to buy them gifts for Christmas, because small actions like that is to show that you cared :)

Am I a nerd?

Someone had just summarized my life in two words : Study and Arashi!

Well, proud to be a hardcore fans of Arashi, because they are always my source of motivation my dosage of happiness, but THAT'S ALL?!

I don't think that is all I have in my life. I always thought, I am trying my level best to be an all-rounder. I never liked english series because they are usually of several seasons and it consumes too much time for me to finish marathon-ing them. But, I alaways watch some Hong Kong drama or Japanese drama (well, those with the actors and actress I liked especially :P). I am not a nerd right?

I have been shopping for a lot. I buy clothes and shoes and bags and a lot more. I can cook just to save money in order to do a little more shopping. That makes me a nerd?! I don't understand the definition of a nerd any more.

My life has a lot more. Though, I can't deny, studies is a big part of it but that don't make it all of it. I do a lot more. I watch series, I draw, I read manga, I blog and a lot more. Well, listening to someone saying it to my face that my life consist of only study and Arashi, I am really depressed now. Just that our lifestyle is different, where mine is so much about study that makes you conclude that about me?

Offer Letter.

At this point of life, I think mine is getting more and more interesting. I didn't expect I am to expect 2 offer letter in a month!

I had finally got my offer letter as an assistant researcher from my university. Well, that would also means that I am getting my pay very soon! Yay! With that, I can be more independent and another tick off from my to-do list.

Once, I told myself I will be involved in a research to help a lecturer with it when I am still in university. I had made it right now. I am doing a research with her right now! It is of so much fun to see another achievement unlock. Though I have been doing it for a whole 2 months but the offer letter had just reached me today so the feelings had finally sink in that I am working! But, surely there is a price to pay. I am working, studying, handling club, rushing for assignments and study for exams, basically I am using every single moment I have wisely to ensure that none of it goes to waste, if no I won't be able to complete some of them.

Another thing learnt is no pain, no gain. Are you ready for it? I am thus I am walking the path of my choice now. What's more, I think it is a good start for my very soon and hectic like hell kind of internship. Well, that is the life of an auditor >.< But again it is a choice of life =)

Keeping myself motivated at all times so that I am able to be strong. Do remember that college life is not gonna be long. Do make full use of it. I think I had made full use of mine and I had grow a lot during this period. Trying out new stuff and all are part of my life now.

Do not look back and regret! Do your best now!

Makan Session in KLCC

Another makan session =)

After visiting one of the accounting firm, Crowe Horwath, sure it is time to replenish some energy. Went over to KLCC which is just opposite them for dinner and surely my beloved dessert =)

So this group of hungry 'piranha' went to Chili's for dinner. We didn't were so hungry and tired, as most of us are in heels for the whole day due to the visitation. Then finally got a seat there and it feels like heaven, adding a glass of cold soft drinks. Well, that would also means salutation to those whom can wear those high heels for a whole day.

My Meal

I think it is something worth ordering. I shared this with another friend and yet we have difficulty finishing it. Do not share the smashed potato XP To me that is the best part of the dish XP Haha! It is well mixed and the layer of cheese above it made it even better. Then adding to it, a little milk is added to it giving it a balance of both milk, and cheese within the potato.

The chicken, has a layer of cheese with beef bacon on it, then the tomatoes are giving a little sourly taste making it very special. However, at the bottom, the taste became a little bland. So the best part is the top, thinks that it can be improved with some marination to give the whole chicken a taste instead of relying on the coating.

Shir Li & Yi Wen's meal. 

Nothing much about this dish but it tasted like BBQ sauce. Perhaps it is because I am pretty full when I tried it? Haha! But for sure is they have a hard time eating the corn XP 

Hui LI's Meal

No place for this. I am too full for the night XP *Burps* 

We all had a great time eating there, but they are a little lack of space so the space between the chair and table are a little small, making it quite uncomfortable. Then we are all cramped as our chair which is supposed to be for 3 are cramped to be 4. So it is pretty uncomfortable. But, all in all we did enjoy our meal, just regretting that there is no picture ;(

Gonna post up about desserts soon ;) Stay Tuned ;)

Vietnamese Dish~

Had you tried home made vietnamese bi hun? It is great with a little sourly taste from the lime, spiciness from the chilli and the freshness from basil leaves.

Then pour hot chicken soup on it, just perfect to make a mouth watering dish.

The chili and lime, as a side =)

The end product without the soup.. Yum.. Yum...

Then it is done ^^









Not too hard yet delicious dish :)

Another Mark of Life~

The mark of your life means so much to us too :) <3

21 is a legal age in Malaysia, thus usually a big celebration is done. This time around it is the turn of my besties!

It is great to see how we all dressed up for such event and it is certainly new to all of us with the theme 'brains and beauty'. But, meeting up with primary school friends and catching up with them is certainly great :)

Sometimes, you won't know how long friendship would last but when it do, it feels so great and loved.

To the person who had walked with me 1/3 of my life and continue to count. 

All the primary school friends whom spend our time together since we are 7, now still counting till the day we part.

The people whom came into our life and changed it <3

Oppss! Was caught to be the emcee of the night XP But take a picture first kay? XP

With the decorations :)

Happy 21st Birthday my miss sunshine! Wished you the best ahead with all wishes come true~ While, making sure that I am in all walks of your life, be your besties in your bachelor night, preparing my best man speech for the alter, be your bridesmaids and surely be the godmother of your child <3

Amazed

I am very amazed with the drawings of this children. They drew their drawings with legs or mouth. Yet they are all fascinating.

With this, now, I had nice and meaningful christmas cards to be sent out to my foster family in Japan. I am sure they will like it =)

Bello October~

Seems like I am a little late. Seems like October is gonna be another busy month. Although it is my holidays, I am now helping my lecturer with her research.

I am glad to be given the chance. I am able to learn a lot. Some people said, your career path started when you started working, but to me it started from the moment you dream and vision about it. Do not waste your time. Time is like a bank with limit. Everyday you can take out 24 hours. If you don't it is gonna be forfeited. Why spending your time and youth on something that would not worth it in 5 years time? Why spending it on something you would regret?

People, you might rise and shine now, but there are a lot of people whom have to give up their dreams, it can be because of an accident, illness or even financial problems. While you can and you have the ability to chase it, do you best, because you can!

If you are a flower, you wanna bloom to be the best. So do human, our attitude itself is our soil. Motivations is our fertilizer.

It will be a great October with full motivations. Gonna work hard towards my goal. New month but with the same goals!

Started Working~

Another valuable experience in my college life! I have been accepted to help my lecturer with her research. Well, certainly a great way to spend my holidays with works. Well, I think in a way I am turning into a workaholic.

Take up chances. Do not miss it because things will only comes to you once. Take it or leave it. Make the decision that you will be proud off years later ;)

You decide how attractive you want to be. Everyone comes in different strength and personalities. To be able to shine, it is partly about the choices made in life.

"You reap what you sow". Maybe not now, but surely, someday, in some ways.

A step towards my dreams.

I had got an offer from my dream firm. Would you believe that I had set my eye on firms since I am in my first year of degree and now I had an offer from them?

I think this is one of my happiest moment, believing that one day I am gonna work in the building I wished to be in. Working in the environment I want to be in and such. I think nothing is greater than this.

Sometimes, we just need to set a goal, stay motivated and go towards it. Brush up your skills people. The amount of time we had as a student is very limited. 4 years, some people spent it not knowing what they want, where they wanna be, but those with a goal had started leading to the path they wanna be in. That is what gonna make a difference one day.

Do not give up. TRY! The word try might seems easy but this is the time you can easily get out of your comfort zone, because you can. You have the time, the courage, the friends to support you, what's more the youth. This is time to be crazy by making decisions without having to consider too much. This is the time where you can get a larger sum of money from parents and manage to save up for your dream. Do not lose the vision in the path. Your dream is hard to achieve is what's makes it worth fighting for! Dream big because you can! Chase it because you want!

The Right Pair of Shoes?

'"Give a woman the right pair of shoes, she can conquer the world."-Marilyn Monroe

After all and all, be confident to chase your dreams! No matter how hard it is, believe that one day it will be yours!

Becoming a role model

Previously, if one were to tell me 'I wish I can be like you', I would certainly reply, 'Haha.. I am nothing. You should wish to be someone better.' But, now I have a different view on it. I would reply 'Thank you. I am honoured. Work a little harder, you can always do it! Let me know if you need anything, will always be here'.

What changed my perspective is about a conversation I heard on radio. He actually said, if someone is looking upon you, it certainly means that you are doing something right. So be proud of yourself and guide them through.

I used to not believe this, and being an Asian, I don't take compliments well. I usually shrugged them off with "where got?" "You also ma.." But lately, I had learnt to take compliment, to accept them. Instead of all that, I had started to say thank you. When a friend told me, I wished I can be you, I had replied her with, you can always be like me, work a little harder and know your aim and dreams. I am here because I know I want to be here. Surprising right? Even I am surprised with my answer but it feels so good after saying it. It is like I am also acknowledging my own effort.

I am great that I know what and where I wanna be in the future, and I really think it is important for everyone to do so. Ask your inner self, be truthful. Search your soul and peace, then you would know and see your dreams.

Credit to real owner. 

Finally

Finally~ After a stressful month. I guess that is when people say I have too much in my hand. 

Exams, interviews, sister's wedding. Well, that is certainly enough to cause my room to be a mess and my board being full of to-do list. I felt so crazy that I actually went through it. I guess this is the saying that you won't know that you are strong until you have to. 

Well, being in a grand hall with the person you love I guess is the dream of every girls. Guess that I am not at the age yet, but if the day is to come, I hope it would be simple. I don't want grand halls, better off without guests, just him and me. I just wanna feel his love, his sincere vow that would do. That would be so much better than with everyone else. 

What is even better is, my exams are done! Finally it is a holiday after a 4 month long of war. I felt that I had finally did it. A semester full of everything. Club, activities, studies and friends. I had it all this semester. It really shows me whom I really can be at times and I think it mould me to be a better person. I don't wanna spend my 20s not knowing what I am doing. I wanna be like a bow, draws back and shoots towards my aim. I am drawing back now, working the hell out of myself, but I am sure I will have the day that I will aim and shoot towards my dreams. 

Of course, another good news, I had got calls from both companies. Although I screwed things up a little with the first company but I think I did well with the second company. So, I think it is good after all. What's more the second company is the company I have been aiming for since the first year of my studies. I really hope that I am able to work there one day. 

Reasons to Like Him~

Today is the birthday of Matsumoto Jun! Happy Birthday!

So I am gonna write about the reasons why I liked him:

• He is a kind DoS. 

It is funny to see how he is being kind, then all shy and shouted back at you. Perhaps should check it out on Episode 34 of Arashi no Shukudai-kun on how Suzuki Anne-san describe him. Haha! But, that totally makes him so unpredictable.

• He cares about his fans. 

I love it when he talks about how he thinks of a concert, how he would plans it. It really feels like he is putting himself in the shoe of a fans, showing us the best and trying to give us the best. Imagine, going to a concert to see the person you idolize with the concept that he thinks off specially for you. Love it more when he describes how he go from ends to ends at the last line of the seats in concert venue and thinks "Ah~ This is what they saw from here.", quoted from Himitsu no Arashi-chan episode 97. 

• He works extremely hard. 

It is when I read from an article translated by Transition 101 on how he used to be lost in the past as he is too ambitious, so he tends to take up too much works including films, variety, concerts and all to the extend that he becomes confused. I guess he is the same as Sakurai-san, they work themselves out extremely, but I guess their life is their message and they wanna deliver it well. This certainly makes me work harder too :P 

• He has the challenging spirits. 

He loves to increase the hurdles and makes things harder, more challenging. Love it on how he actually challenge the remaining time in Cliff Climb for 2013 New Year Special of VS Arashi, which ended up being scolded by Ohno-san. I guess he really love the excitement. 

• He is a good cook. 

Love it when he has a battle showdown with Kokubun-san in Arashi ni Shiyagare. It is where they have to cook fried rice, which he had never cooked before as he always cooked pasta and other stuffs. Haha! So italian :P Whats more when he cooks with Oshima-san in Himitsu no Arashi-chan, he looked so skilled. Can have all the confidence that he will produce a perfect dish. 

• He is a perfectionist. 

He wants things to be as perfect as possible. This can be seen in concerts and their choreography. Ninomiya-san once said that he actually asked them to consolidate their dance steps at 10 pm when they thought that it ended. Check it out at episode 184 of Himitsu no Arashi-chan. What's more, he wants it to be so perfect that to the extend of which sides of the hand is to be shown is taken into consideration. Hats off!

• His fashion style. 

Haha! This guy works wonders with his fashion style. He can be sooo stylish at a time that can makes you on the verge of fainting, yet another he would be in his bow tie and being left unsold :P Wonderfully, it makes an impact in me is the gold shiny jacket that he once wore in Mannequin 5 which is similar to Michael Jackson's stage cloth. Surprisingly, he pull it off well :)

• His passion. 

I love it the most when after every episode of Mago Mago Arashi, I always love the present he prepared the most. The pictures! He is good in taking them. It can really speaks a thousand words. It contains so much of the memories that I think the grandpa and grandma would love to treasure them. 

• He is stoic. 

Credit to the original owner. 

I am someone whom is very emotionally driven, so I really admire and love how stoic he can be. He is not afraid of voicing out his opinions too. 

• His love for travelling. 

I love the places that he wished to go. Paris~ Wah! So stylish! I loved how he will make full use of his off days. 

Happy 30th Birthday Jun! There are just sooo much reasons to like you!

P.S. This are all personal opinions. 

Perhaps Another Time~

What if your crush is your friend? What if you have been friend zoned?

To confess? Not to confess?

It is hard right?

I had a crush whom is in my circle of best friends. I don't know where I am in, perhaps I should say I have been friend zoned as he can easily tell me which girls are of his preference. But, funnily, he never takes any action to go after them.

Why is it him? I have been asking myself a lot of times. I don't know. We fight for the smallest things on earth, what's more when we are both strong headed and ego whom just refused to give in. However, funnily, one of us would just give in to end the argument. We always have different view in life. He is always rational. Rationality is always above feelings. But to me, rationality is important but feelings are always above it. I can never be like him. Well, that is another reason for our fights.

It is always hard to like a guy especially when he is from the same circle of friends. But he had also thought me a lot of things.

People cares. Don't ever think no one cares, because they do. Sometimes when I am emo, this group of friends would easily sense it, and he is certainly one of them. We can easily brush it off with a cone of ice cream =) or perhaps some good food.

People are there to help. They are always there when I am in trouble. No matter they can help or not, even borrowing an ear is a help itself. They would just be there for hours looking and listening when I am crying, when I am lost.

They put themselves in your shoes. They think of a problem from your perspective and solve it with you. I guess that is the best. To know someone whom thinks of you and cares for it.

To me, I had chosen not to confess. I am already in the friend zone, if we are fated, I shall leave it to the hand of God. But if we are not, I am glad He shows me someone like him that thought me this much. Everyone appear in your life for a reason. His reason for being here is to show me, at times I don't need to think too much, need not worked too much, just go with the flow and let fate decides :)

Max it out with a Maxi

Have been looking for a maxi dress for some time for sister's wedding. Pheww... Finally found it :)

Sometimes the dress might not look that nice or attractive on the shelf, but when you wear it, you never know the result. It can be awesome on you :) 

What do you all think of this?? 

A Day with Them.

On last Sunday, 18/8/13, we the Accounting Club team went out for a bonding session.

At first it is certainly a nay, with them asking us to be in the beach at 12! Haha! But have to say that the organizing committee had did a good job. We were there at 12, but there are a lot of shades so it isn't that hot after all. Then we had plenty of time to chat around before they put us into groups. Then the game started. Well, at first everyone were reluctant, as we just don't know each other but the warming up session is good. Putting us into small groups make it easier for us to talk and get to know too. But, I am not in any groups, I am the photographer of the day XP The advantage is I get to go around and disturb everyone, but disadvantage is, none of my picture is there :(

The heat is certainly not a joke when you can't even see their eyes XP

Then, we are given some refreshment, sponge cakey~ Yay! Certainly great as some of us didn't even have our lunch XP

Then the surely not to miss out barbecue session in the evening. When you get to see the marinated chicken turns slightly golden, and not black, after a whole day of game. Wooow~ It tasted perfect. The slightly crispy skin of the chicken, then the fully cooked meat, which is still hot and burning. Adding to it, it has been added with a glaze of honey, making the flavour just perfect.

Posing with the Chicken wings dy XP

Come on! Make it faster! We are hungry!

To those out there whom are still confined in your shell, put on a brave face and try to walk out of it. It isn't that scary. It can be pretty fun too. Sometimes you just need the first step to make a change in your life. Time is not gonna stop nor turn back for you. It is now or never! You can't be doing this at the age of 50 and you will regret for not doing it now. 

Try it out.

Another type of paring it up. Usually the thumb of rule is that not to pair up strips with anything else but simple clothing. But this time I tried pairing it up with another strips. So is it a yay or nay?

 

# Because I am a Girl

I know you are liking and chasing over someone else, but I can't help but stupidly fall for you.

Althougn I'll say I hate you now,

Though I'll shout and curse you out,
I'll always have love for you,
Because I am a girl.
#BecauseIAmAGirl

Although I know it all along,
This shall end now,
But I can't help,
Thinking about you.
#BecauseIAmAGirl

I can act all strong,
As if I don't care nor mind,
But my heart still feel the pain,
Every time you walk off with another person.
#BecauseIAmAGirl

It is so hard to like a guy whom you know does not like you. What's more when he tells you when he is going to a date, treating you like a brother. You just doesn't know, you have the power to shatter my heart.

Memories in the country of the rising sun~

I missed them so much. Have been having spring cleaning lately, so managed to found some old stuff which had been kept away for some time. Of course that includes, various pictures in Japan.

I went there under a student exchange program. I am glad that I went. A once in a lifetime experience! It would never be the same.

Now I missed them so much. My foster family, their family friends, friends and others whom kindly helped us to get used to the environment there. I am really glad of the care from my foster family. They treated me so kindly. I stayed with them for 2 days, guess what, I slept on the floor, in the living room. It is so different in Malaysia. I used to read in comics that they slept on the floor but thinking that their house are kindda big. Well, look at Nobita's house XP

Haha! No complains because that is the norms, but it is fun. They welcomed me with fire crackers! We lighted them up together at that night after dinner. Even for dinner, okaasan was so worried that I am not used to the food, so she prepared dumpling which is very much chinese-liked food for me :D I am so loved right? Then, of course they had fun teasing my broken and literally checking the english-japanese dictionary for every word japanese XP

What I loved the most is they actually brings me out to various places. What is most memorable is certainly the school. We are given the privilege to visit a school. It was school holidays back then, so there is no one there, and my parents actually invited a teacher and group of students to demonstrate tea ceremony for us (me and another friend). I didn't know the tea is sooooo bitter. When I took the first sip, awww.. then the sensei, offered us mochi~ Haha!

All this are memories back in year 2008. I had lost contacts with a lot of them. But, thanks all of them for all the great memories. Even if I revisit Japan, it will never be the same! They painted the Japan Trip with such unique colours! Arigatou~

Parts of the memories :)

To those whom wonders, if you should do it, those whom are scared and worried to go to the foreign country alone, please muster up your courage and go. The experience gained is never the same and I am sure you won't regret it. It can be very fun going to the country even when you know nothing about the language and started pointing here and there hoping to express it XP

Melt in your mouth mochi!

Super Happy with the mochi :D

Went to Gardens to shop for a dress then came to this little booth selling mochi. It is made from Japanese glutinous rice with fillings in it. They have various fillings including sweet potatos, green tea, peach, sakura and others. 

It is frozen and the recommended defrosting time is 20 minutes, however, I waited up to 30 minutes so that the skin become soft before eating it. It is certainly mouth watering. The skin is not too thick, as after the first bite, you would be able to taste the fillings in it. It is very chewy, giving it a perfect texture, with a little powdery feel and smell. To me, the best part is when you reached the middle of it, where there is some cream there. It is the best part, not just the taste, it smells equally good. By the way, the fillings would be cold, but it works perfectly with the soft skin of it.

What's better is it only costed RM3.50. It is certainly worth the price, when you get the melt-in-mouth flavour of it. However, if you get a set of 12 for RM40, which is cheaper. It is best to savour the flavor slowly and let it melt in your house.

Left one is peach and the right one is sweet potato. 

I tried the sweet potato and peach flavour. I love the peach flavour, I love the smell of it.

The attractive decorations XD

What is a bonus is it's decoration. It will certainly attract you when it has lines of the mochi being displayed with different flavour. Then at the corner of it there is an old couple dolls used as decoration. The black stall at 2nd floor of the gardens which looks so much like a Japanese stall is certainly it.

Life~

Life is a story, and we are all actors by our own. An optimist would write a comedic, and a pessimist would write up a tragedy. Which one are you?

Sometimes, as we stop by due to traffic, there will be usually two scenarios. It is either, one will curse non stop, as if like the whole world is at fault. But, another perhaps would blast up the radio and hum along to the music and enjoy it. Sounds familiar? Which one are you? Most of the time we can't avoid trouble, but are they really trouble? Or it is us viewing it as a trouble?

How to change your story from a tragedy to a comedic?

Part of things work due to how we think. When we are so negative, thinking that things will never work, thinking that all the bad things will happen, it is exactly why it happens. It wasn't because it is fated, nor written but it could be us that cause it to happen. So, start thinking positively! It can change, especially when it changes how you view the world. It certainly helps you to view problems not as a problem any more. The thinking would make your world much brighter, more colourful. Thus, start thinking positively :)

Next, it is to smile. It might sounds stupid to smile when there is nothing good to laugh at. But, live your day believing that good things would happen when you face it with a smile, and not going through your day laughing when there is something good happened. You would feel happier, which would certainly generate a lot of positive and happier aura around you.

Remember, when there is no rain, there wouldn't be rainbow. You wanna gain happiness, but before you can have it, you would have to go through some obstacles. When you are given everything, one tend to not appreciate it, then would you still be happy? No! Because you don't know the value in it. That is why, the best wishes is not wishing one the best, but it is wishing one enough. When you have all the best things, you would no longer appreciate smaller things, but when wishing one enough is to wish them the best, wishing God to shower them with enough to survive as much as to enjoy, but never too much, so that they would still appreciate small details of life :)

I wish you have enough sun to keep your bright attitude, but with enough rain for you to appreciate the sun. I wish you enough happiness to keep you happy, but with enough pain so that you would appreciate even the smallest joy. I wish you enough gain to fulfill your dreams, yet enough pain for you to know, gaining each of them is never easy. Lastly, I wish you have enough hellos to go through all the good byes with you. 

Wraps

Have you try making your own wraps? It is a simple and easy to make dish, yet certainly fulling.

You would need:
Vegetables, ranging from carrot, potatoes, green beans, corns which had been steamed.

Black pepper chicken, best is if it is a little spicier than usual as the taste might had been mild after being wrapped.

Sandwich wrap.

The End Product

Haha! Certainly great for a lazy day XP Perhaps you should start trying too.

Heat up the sandwich wrap a little then it would turn out all crispy. Besides that, the sweet taste of the vege and the slightly spicy and salty chicken being combined is certainly great! If you want a better taste, get a flavoured sandwich wrap.

Role Model-Irie Ryosuke

Is it important to have a role model? Who can be my role model? Why do I need a role model?

Yesh. It is important to have a role model, usually they are the one whom keep you going at times when you are lazy or perhaps you are demotivated. Thus, they plays an important role, as they are usually successful people whom you wanna be like. I often admire people whom can succeed in both career and studies. They tend to make me a little more studious, as they can do it, I can too right?! Well, I only have studies to take care of anyway :P

Credit to: Irie Ryosuke Twitter

With that, I would like to share some story about him. I had found this swimmer very hawt at first, as I first saw him in a Japanese variety show. Then I had started to Google up about him. Reading through his profile makes him even hawt-er. He is an olympic swimmer! Imagine how much of efforts, training, discipline and hard work it is before he is whom he is today. But, he is still studying, he is a university student. How many of us now are actually complaining, I have lots of tutorials, endless assignments, and sleepless nights? Come on, when he can do it, who are you to complain?! That is how they always managed to inspire me.

We easily feel like giving up on things, when things don't goes well, don't goes as we want. But, take a look at others, what makes them successful? He equally has 24 hours. He is none other than another human being, but what makes him so successful? It is nothing other than himself. His discipline, his passion, him finding himself. He did not like swimming at first, and he wants to quit. His hangs onto it as his mother promised to get him out after a year being there. Throughout that period, I guess a lot of us would just simply, and lazily go to the training and leave, but he finds himself there. He developed the passion over the time. Would you?

"“I am what I am today because you didn’t ask my coach to let me quit,” he recently told his mother."

When he can, why not you? That is how he changed my life to be more discipline, more studious and definitely better. I don't want to give up that easily any more. Thank you!

Home Sweet Home~

Finally I am home! My one week holidays had finally started. Aww~ Loved to be home.

"House is just a structure with walls and furniture, but home is when a house is full of love. That is why it is home sweet home."

Perhaps some of us might think that it is always boring to be home, but never forget it is home that contains your family whom is the most important treasure in your life. You can always ask why, but never forget they are those whom:

1. would love you unconditionally.  

No matter what happened, no matter how much you had changed, they will always love you. Be it the cheeky you, the stubborn you, the cheerful you, the pretty you, they love 'em all. They are those whom willingly accept your weakness. They are also those whom would never think twice to help you when you are in trouble, because they love you so much. Remember, they are those whom you can always turn to when you are in trouble, and at times, they are the faces crossed your mind when you are in trouble, isn't it?

2. would support you no matter what. 

They are those whom would support you when you are in the right path. In chasing your dreams, your ambitions. Sometimes, words are not needed as you know they will. They might not be people whom would praise you for everything single achievement you had received but you know, you had made them proud and you achieved it because of their support.

Sometimes, we all have hard times. Turn to them, talk to them. You won't know until you do. None of us are ESP-ers. We don't read minds, so you have to speak out. Bonds don't born just because you are family members. They are born after all the things being gone through together, all the thick and thins. Do not forget, no matter whom you are, there are always people whom will be willing to forgive and love you! <3

At your 20s

I guess the age of 20s are the best, this is due to various reasons. Thus, people, do not waste the time at your 20s.

• Do hang out till late nite. 

This is the age where you are away from family. You don't have to think, what would my parents feel when I am going home late, what else when you are studying far from home. No one is gonna nag you about curfews. You will never know the fun of staying up late with the girls chatting about everything. That is the fun that you would not want to miss. Do be crazy once in a while, it is not all about studying :D

• Do dress up. 

This is especially when you don't have to wear formal to campus. No specific dress code where everyone wears the same. It is time to be special. Don't be afraid to try, don't be afraid to wear, as long as it is appropriate. Try buying bright colour shirts or even outer wear. Try different types of shirts. This is because some of those funky shirts are only suitable for us :P Do not miss out the opportunity to try! 

• Go vacation. 

This is when everyone's holidays fall on the same month or when there is overlapping. It is the perfect time to go vacations with friends and family. Do not miss it out. Sometimes, let it go, save up and leave for a vacation. Go with a buddy or a sister. See the world and you might come back feeling different. Have all the fun and let things go. What's more important, relax! Then you can walk further when you are back ;)

Be busy. 

Do join events. Join different events. People, the world out there aren't all about the theory you cramp into your head. There are a lot of other components including communication, personalities, confidence, etc. Do not be a nerd, move out of your shell. While you are still in university or college, it is the best time to learn. You would have ample of chances, you would be given the rights to make decision and there is always a team to support you in it. It is said, your university life are likely to reflect whom you are after you started working because you tend to stick with the habit you developed in university. So, start working, do not stop improving!

• Try new things!

I guess this is the time when most of us are most daring. Perhaps it is because we do not think much before diving into a situation. But, it is also an advantage, because experience are never too much. Every new things being tried is also a lesson by itself. Remember when you first going late to class, first time not sitting with your friend in class, first time joining an event and such. You do learnt, just that you don't realize it until you take your time to look back. 

How to Smile?

Sometimes we just need to learn how to smile when all the troubles come. Had just went through a terrible midterm. Tips were given and I had studied but, I thought I know how to do but I ended up knowing that all my answers is wrong when someone posted the correct answer. Oh gosh! How could this happen? But there is always a way to smile when you forgot how. It is easy:

1. Talk to someone.
When you are feeling down, talk to someone, then you might realized you are not the only one whom is facing the problem. What's more if you managed to find the solution? It is always better to know that you are not in trouble alone right? And it would certainly be a bonus to know that someone actually cares :)

2. Get some sweet and your favourite food.
Dump all the diets for once. Diets can always start TOMORROW at times like this. Go and grab your favourite food. Then eat as you like, certainly all the bad moods will float away. Then, a smooth smile will start to appear. To me, best cure is to get an ice-cream. Don't get a Tupperware of it as you might not be able to stop, so get a cone or a cup of it only.




3. Set it aside.
Do know your priority. If you have something important to do tomorrow, then flip off the switch! What is done, is done. Nothing can be changed no matter how hard you pray nor cry. It has become a history. What you can change is tomorrow, so live today to change tomorrow. Shut all the negative thoughts down and get focused.

4. Start a comedy session.
I am sure all of us have a movie, or drama episode that will never fail to make us laugh. At times like this, it is the perfect moment to make good use of it. Play it off, best is if you have a friend whom enjoys it as much as you. Laugh your heart out, then you would realized that things had been a lot lighter.
5. Blast off your favourite song.
Blast it off and sing along. Do not play some emotional song. Choose something happier and perhaps with lighter tones. Sing it along. Then you would feel so much happier :D

Then that is how you will start smiling :) Life is not about waiting for the rain to be over, but it is about learning how to dance in the rain :)

Another Friday!

It is always fun when it comes to Friday because the weekend is near =D It is just around the corner now :D But on this Friday, what to wear to class? Have you ever wonder what to wear? Why not try this? Pairing up a white or beige shirt with a bright coloured cardigan or blazer, then pair it with a pair of skinny. There you go. Perfect for a playful Friday. It certainly brightens your day more. We don't need reasons to dress up right? What's more when it is to brighten our days!

By pairing it with a bright cardigan, most of the time the attention would be there, but to not forget to pair it with a skinny to further slim down your leg, especially dark coloured ones, which would help to highlight not just your upper body. I prefer pairing it with a loose shirt, as it balances up the skinny and the bright cardigan or blazer.

Handmade Pressies Idea

Sometimes to a friend whom just don't know what to be bought. She is never a fashion freak, to her t-shirt and jeans are her best companion, she is never a bookworm, unless it interest her she would never finish reading the book XP. It is always hard in thinking of what present to give her.

What's worse is when she answers you, I want love as present. Haha.. This shy girl whom refuses to talk nor made friends with strangers tell me that. It took me so long to decide what to give to her. Finally, here is the outcome.

A compilation of her presents. It is actually a polystyrene board which is personalized to her liking. I included her name, her little chibi drawings, then some motivational quotes at the sides together with a frame to include our best momento. Then, I actually logged into the university system to check on her timetable and copied it out.

She is so shy when she received it. I hope she made good use of it. The flowers are actually being cut out from the remains of the polystyrene and being decorated with some coloured marker pens.

Sometimes, it is not the value of the gift but it is the meaning behind it that counts. Handmade presents are usually cheap but they are always full of efforts and love.

For someone whom is special and you want them to feel your love, this would be a great choice. Them using it, your hardwork would bring even more happiness.

"Love is, above all, the gift of oneself"-Jean Anouilh
I hope you could feel the love. Happy Birthday Amy~