Perhaps Another Time~

What if your crush is your friend? What if you have been friend zoned?

To confess? Not to confess?

It is hard right?

I had a crush whom is in my circle of best friends. I don't know where I am in, perhaps I should say I have been friend zoned as he can easily tell me which girls are of his preference. But, funnily, he never takes any action to go after them.

Why is it him? I have been asking myself a lot of times. I don't know. We fight for the smallest things on earth, what's more when we are both strong headed and ego whom just refused to give in. However, funnily, one of us would just give in to end the argument. We always have different view in life. He is always rational. Rationality is always above feelings. But to me, rationality is important but feelings are always above it. I can never be like him. Well, that is another reason for our fights.

It is always hard to like a guy especially when he is from the same circle of friends. But he had also thought me a lot of things.

People cares. Don't ever think no one cares, because they do. Sometimes when I am emo, this group of friends would easily sense it, and he is certainly one of them. We can easily brush it off with a cone of ice cream =) or perhaps some good food.

People are there to help. They are always there when I am in trouble. No matter they can help or not, even borrowing an ear is a help itself. They would just be there for hours looking and listening when I am crying, when I am lost.

They put themselves in your shoes. They think of a problem from your perspective and solve it with you. I guess that is the best. To know someone whom thinks of you and cares for it.

To me, I had chosen not to confess. I am already in the friend zone, if we are fated, I shall leave it to the hand of God. But if we are not, I am glad He shows me someone like him that thought me this much. Everyone appear in your life for a reason. His reason for being here is to show me, at times I don't need to think too much, need not worked too much, just go with the flow and let fate decides :)